020 Vaginal Birth

here she done . Normal delivery

Birth in Nature: Natural Birth

such a brave women. 

she done that.

I watched this video almost 3 times.. and i still feeling pain and scared.

SHE is such a very very brave heart. 

M-O-T-H-E-R

M-O-T-H-E-R

“M” is for the million things she gave me,

“O” means only that she’s growing old,

“T” is for the tears she shed to save me,

“H” is for her heart of purest gold;

“E” is for her eyes, with love-light shining,

“R” means right, and right she’ll always be,

Put them all together, they spell “MOTHER,”

A word that means the world to me

08/05/2015

Since Wednesday until today i'm feeling very weak. My all body omg! feeling very pain. I don't know what happened.

Last night I got High Fever.

Now again am feeling pain, my whole body.

What happened to me God.

Am i ok??

Whatever sickness i have, please make me strong and cure me God.

I have so many dream to achieved.

So many good people around me. I don't want to make them worried especially my family and my Love One.

Already two days i didn't go office. 

Yesterday EL and today is MC.

Thanks to my BOS. She is really understanding person. 

I'm so lucky to be work under her.

God bless my BOS. 

Today is Mother day.. HAPPY MOTHER DAY tO my MAMA. SHe is a very amazing mama. Nobody can compare her stronger heart.

She is the person who don't sleep when one of her 10 kids not feeling well. 

I'm a very proud daughter of u mama.

i Love u till heaven. 

HAPPY MOTHER DAYS also to both my sisters who already become mom for they kids.

Also to my hubby MOM and his sister. 

GOD BLESS ALL MOTHERS IN THIS WORLD.

Give them happiness who nobody can replace.

give them all the nice moment in life. 

If my turn will be celebrate as a mother next year.. I'm so blessed. will thanks to god first of all.

Can't wait the moment to come.

Just keep praying to God. 

07/05/2015

Rasanya senyuman macam dah betul2 lesap. 

Cuma masa yang mampu menentukan arah kemana dan di mana kapal ini akan karam. 

Hati memang sukar menerima tetapi percayalah ianya menangis.

07/05/2015

Sampai satu ketika kita akan bertanya pada hati. ADAKAH keputusan yang kita buat ini betul. 

Sampai satu ketika kita juga akan rasa penyesalan daripada keputusan yang kita buat.

Sampai satu ketika kita juga akan merasa apa yang kita buat adalah betul.

Cuma kita kena kuat. 

Jangan pernah menangisi apa yang telah terjadi dan keputusan yang kita buat.

Menangis tidak salah. Langsung tidak ada salahnya.

Suatu ketika dulu, terlalu banyak mimpi yang terukir di minda ini.

Sampai tak tercapai dek fikiran.

Live in Village is a very good choice but I choose to be here.

Now with all tears and pain. Nobody knows. 

I was a fighter. No tears no fear. 

But today......

only GOD knows how weak i am.

Pretend to be a very strong WOMEN. 

But INSIDE.....BURN ..destroyed.

PAIN

HURT 

TEARS

FEAR

until one time i'm feeling like really can't even breath properly. 

Have something blocking inside.

Even people around smiling but who's knows inside they mind.

They laughing on my stupidity and innocent thinking and life.

They give me help..they be nice on me talk nicely but all is just because sympathy. 

HOW STUPID i AM??

i learn from my mistake my experience ... 

But still have somebody trying they best to make me down and loss my confidence and my SELF.

I'm just too stupid and blind to accept the fact that i can't stand in this situation anymore. 

It's really destroy my SELF from inside until nothing left at the end.

Love and trust is everything i want from him.

I'm just too tired to be a fool.

GOD what is your plan. 

if i'm just to weak for all the test please hold my hand tight.

He is the only one i want to lead me and make me happy until my last breath in your land.

Please hear my prayers.

Im just too weak without his VOICE, smile, joke and smell and everything.

I'm just too in love with Him. 

I'm not a perfect girl for him but He is the one who can make me perfect in my imperfections.

He just too hate me now. I come to his life and make him too tense and become his burden. 

I know that very clear. He always remain me. How Stupid i am, How uGLY i am. 

I try my very best to not do any mistakes. But i really don't understand he too negative about me. 

i didn't do any wrong behind him. In GOD name i can really swear. 

God please lead Both of us to be a very good match, with chemistry and understanding and trust and LOVE.

THANKS GOD!

you are a very GOOD listener. 

too attach n its really make me crazy worried

#07/05/2015 #Thursday #04.08am #malaysia

Tuhan lindungi dia di mana pun dia berada. Hati saya sangat risau.

Entah dia tengah tidur atau sedang berjaga saya tak tahu. 

Satu yang saya tahu dan pasti saat ini saya masih berjaga dan sangat risaukan dia.

Lindungi dia dari segala bahaya Tuhan. Dalam NamaMu saya percaya. 

Dalam nama Yesus saya sangat sayangkan dia Tidak pernah terlintas di fikiran ini untuk bergembira tanpa dia disisi.

Segala masa depan  semuanya saya dambakan hanya bersama dia. 

Biarpun tentangan dan cabaraan serta cobaan yang menanti dan sedang kami tempuhi saat ini sangat getir tapi saya percaya cinta antara kami lebih utuh. 

Berkati Cinta ini Tuhan.

Tunjukan kami jalan untuk kedepan.

Permudahkan segala yang sukar dan sulit. 

Tiada yang lebih mengetahui melainkan engkau.

Dalam nama Yesus yang satu saya memohon dengan rendah hati.

AMEN

AMAZING SABAH-EAST Malaysia

Kapalai Island, SEMPORNA

Sipadan Island

Pom Pom Island Resort is a luxury private dive resort located 35 miles from Semporna.

 Lankayan Island,Sabah 

Sapi Island is only 15 min by boat ride from Kota Kinabalu City.

Manukan island

Pulau Tiga, sabah

joUrney to get a small happiness

Perjalanan untuk mengecapi bahagia tidak semudah yang disangka dan diimpikan. Cobaan tidak pernah putus. Selalu saja diiringi dengan air mata. Bahagia yang sekejap tidak pernah akan kekal. Panas tidak selalu sampai ke petang.  Mesti akan hujan di tengah hari. Berbahagia dan bersyukurlah biarpun ianya cuma sekejap.

Tersenyumlah wahai hati yang pernah terluka dan akan terus terluka. Hidup akan selalu penuh dengan kelukaan tapi teruslah kuat dan kuat. 

traditional costume

This is our traditional costume from SABAH.

My mom is from Penampang.

My dad is from Tambunan.

So for my big day i will use either one of this. 

PROUD TO BE SABAHAN.