Saturday, 7 November 2015

08 Novemebr 2015

Hari ni, hubby saya dengan his brother going party from they company at Sunway Resort.

They have lucky draw. His friends got ipad mini. When they come home they didn't mentioned who won that. His friends announce that my hubby won that and he gave to his wife as a present. The minutes his friends said my hubby won that i'm so excited and very happy. But the minutes my hubby mentioned yes that is a present from him to his friend wife.

Omg! can't imagine my feeling. Everything become one. In my mind is am very happy so that my hubby can have new mobile so he no need to struggle with his spoiled mobile now.

But i never thoughts they a lying. Actually my hubby friend is the one who won that. I'm too embarrassing because over react at the moment they tell us about that news.

I'm too disappointed + embarrassing ++++

After that my mood totally changed.

One more thing is, even if my hubby is the one who won that. It's no point actually because he will volunteer give that things to them. Its always happened. No surprise for me. I just can be disappointed and angry, nothing else.

I can't get free gift from everywhere because at the end it will not be mine. At the end, all will belong to them never be mine.

Friday, 6 November 2015

07/11/2015

Masa berlalu terlalu cepat. Now is November. Felt like, yesterday only we celebrate new year 2015.

Di saat kita sedar masa berlalu terlalu cepat saat itu tanpa kita sedari masa kita semakin singkat. Usia semakin meningkat dan banyak benda yang kita masih belum lakukan dan tunaikan.

Hanya Tuhan mengerti kependekan masa di bumi ini.

Terlalu banyak masa yang ada dan kita habiskan untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia. Saat ini, pada usia ini kita terjaga selepas mimpi panjang yang boleh dikategori sebagai membazir tanpa hasil yang berguna dan bermanafaat untuk diri dan insan lain di sekitar.

Macam baru semalam rasanya saya belari-lari , berkejar-kejar dengan adik-beradik yang lain di rumah papan yang usang di sebuah kampung yang kecil di negeri di bawah bayu.  Saat ini semuanya sudah berlalu dan hanya memori yang mampu diimbas dengan air mata yang sangat murah mengalir apabila terkenangkan kenangan indah antar kami 10 orang adik-beradik yang dibanjiri dengan kasih sayang daripada kedua Raja dan Ratu hati kami. Biarpun tidak dibanjiri dengan wang ringgit dan kesenangan tapi kami tidak pernah menangisi kehidupan ini.

Esok abang saya akan officially menamatkan zaman bujangnya dengan wanita tanah seberang(Indonesia).

Dari jauh saya mendoakan kebahagian mereka. Semoga perjalanan rumahtangan mereka   akan dimurahi dan dilimpahi dengan berkat dan kesihatan yang baik dan cinta yang kukuh.

Biarpun banyak kesusahan yang dialami sebelum majlis mereka berlangsung tetapi mereka terus kuat dan puji Tuhan mereka berjaya sampai ke tahap yang diberkati dan direstui agama serta orang terdekat.

Selamat pengantin baru 1st Brother, you deserved good and understanding partner to be your wife and obviously always be you side no matter what. ... God bless your new journey with blossom flower and brighter fireworks. I love you to the moon and back. Be good husband and understanding best friend to your only wife.